I’ve been away from Substack for a few weeks because my husband and I are about to close on our first house! We did not expect to find a property so quickly, given how the economy’s been going. It was a “right place, right time” situation. The past couple weeks have been a whirlwind of appointments, e-signatures, long documents, and logistical headaches, but every now and then, my husband and I look at each other and quite literally giggle with excitement.
At the same time, my first year as a school librarian is coming to a close and I’m prepping the space for the end of the school year. My last grad course has begun. Wedding season is upon us. In the midst of all these transitions, my creative pursuits have been relegated to the backburner. I want to be consistent about writing, crocheting, the 7 million other projects that I have going, but I only get as far as the intention.
I have a tendency to take on a lot of things at once, things I think will give me life but actually drain me because of the life they require. Writing requires a presence of mind I haven’t had this past month. It also requires me not to fall asleep on the couch any time I’m sitting there for more than 10 minutes. What have I done with my pockets of spare time? Staring into the void, reading, doomscrolling, falling asleep, watching guilty pleasure shows, worrying, planning, making spreadsheets, worrying.
I’m trying to give myself grace in what is quite possibly the biggest financial and logistical transition of our married life. The “work stoppage” in creative pursuits won’t be forever. Instead of more pressure and projects, I’m trying to rest more, eat more, take more moments to stop and appreciate the apartment in which we started our marriage and built a home together for the past few years. If I can write and create, great! If not, that’s ok - all transitions come to an end because they are just that - transitions.
I look forward to the time when we’re settling into our home, slowly unpacking and deciding how to craft our spaces so they foster the energy and life we want. I look forward to developing a consistent writing routine over the summer and figuring out how to live and be in a new space, a new community. Most of all, I look forward to connecting with you here on Substack. I’ve still been reading Substack during this time, so if you have a piece you’ve written or have read that you’re excited about, please link it below!
Til next time 🧡